5.12.04
College Football: ACC Champs. 10-2. I told you so (at least about the 10-2 part). I also noticed, looking back on previous posts, that I called the UVa game right on the mark (to paraphrase: Tech wins by 2 touchdowns, but it's not that close). The whole "team" concept from which we'd strayed over the last 2 years? The "team" concept is a good thing. Seriously. And Bryan Randall? If he's not ACC MVP (or offensive MVP, if they don't award one overall, but rather to units) then my name is Musket Mouse, and I'm a arsonholic. And this season has been, to quote Tailgate Fever, a statement season. Looking back on it, the sack of Durant was a big play, and the stand to hold Georgia Tech to a field goal (and within one posession) was a statement, and the Maryland game was a statement, and to beat Miami in Miami just says volumes about this year's team, all good (the blocked kicks against Carolina and Miami, on the other hand...). And now, Tech's an underdog again (apparently the bookies had them +7 at Miami), this time to Auburn (I don't see lines up at Vegas.com yet, but give them time; the matchup was just announced less than 2 hours ago). However, during the last two statement seasons, we've played in N'Awlins, both times playing well (once we won, and once we lost). But since it's not the Holy Grail, I Believe we can win. It's just a matter of the defense stepping up one more time. And Bryan Randall stepping up. He can. And he always has, at least this season (and he did so most of the time before this season).
Va Tech 28, Auburn 10 (1995 all over again, isn't it?)
I believe.
Springfield 22150 or Calamo Street or whatever you want to call this soap opera that just happens to be my personal life: She talks to me, she's more than willing to call me, she has proclaimed that she feels like one of the characters in Ever After. Namely, that she's conflicted, that she wants to do one thing regarding her love life (this, I guess, would be to see me), but that she feels compelled to wait for her ex, to be certain that nothing could happen between the two of them before she can emotionally let go. Plus something about how I'm too far, in the opposite direction of the rest of her friends, etc. (To be fair, I mentioned the fact that she travels to points further from her home to her, and she said that she doesn't get to those other spots every 3-5 days, as she would do were we to date. Fair enough.)
So here's my question: I'm being sloughed off, aren't I? Now, I would normally write this off to insecurity (and that may be it, I don't know). But, given the distance between the two of us - she's in Montgomery County, Md., I'm in Springfield - the distance issue hadn't even occurred to me. I once spent a year dating someone east of Frederick, during most of which I was in Montgomery Co., Va., and the remainder of which was spent in Springfield. I'd have no problem travelling up there (significantly) more often than she travels down this way. But there's also the fact that she lives with family. And I guess she and I are in similar circumstances - we don't want to show our filthy hovels to others, for whatever reasons. I guess. So I take it I'm being sloughed off. But we still have the friendship, so the $64,000 question becomes why we know each other; what, perchance, does God want each of us to get out of it?
Although I do want to meet her, if only so that she's more than a voice over a cell phone, and more than a bunch of characters on a computer screen. *sigh*. I've been sloughed off there too (although I think this is because she assumes that I want to get romantically involved with her).
I wouldn't date her until she gets her emotional love life in some reasonable order, which, of course, is code for dropping the ex (though keeping the friendship, so long as it wouldn't prevent each of them from moving forward emotionally); (1) it didn't work out the last time, so what makes anyone think it would work out were they to try it again and (2) it's been 2 1/2 years since they broke up; if something were going to happen, I reckon it would have happened by now. In a lot of ways, she's like Virginia Tech: Va Tech has scheduled Temple and Syracuse well into the future, so the Hokies, like her, are the person who can't stop hooking up - under whatever pretense - with their ex.
Well, I say that I wouldn't date her. But who knows. If our meeting goes well, I'd certainly think about it. And I am, thus far, attracted to her. And, in matters romantic, I oftentimes have little willpower, and am much more likely to say yes because (1) I've never enjoyed rejecting someone and (2) I like the emotions that often surface (both mine and those I observe of my partner) for the most part.
Thanks for enduring my rant. More later (who knows when, though). R.
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